Teddy.15

Grieving Heart

 

And then…

in a split moment

my mood changed…

flooded by the darkest moments

that ripped my soul from my torso

   my body falling once more to the floor

as a dead body falls   

 

I could actually describe it as

being lost, so damn lost, numb and cold

I had to find my way

but my legs somehow didn’t want me to walk

I was simply stuck

 watching a clock without hands

 

no road could offer solace

each that I chose   

simply offering grief and uncertainty

 

all I thought I needed

I just couldn’t find

 

a simple road sign, signaling the right way

 

navigation

 

that we all crave at some time in our lives

 

the only one I found  

battered by natures wrath

it seemed, as if it was as lost as I was?

both of us, cheated by the claws

and scratches of this relentless wind

pelted by rain

rain, that sometimes felt like rocks

darkest clouds in an unforgiving sky 

 

all I could confirm

in my tired brain-frozen-mind

was that, there would be no exit

and without an exit

it actually led me to feel peaceful

at least finding peace in my own acceptance

that I may never find my way

 

 but then in another split second

 my mood changed once more

and I didn\'t need that sign

that one simple direction

that could have helped me find my way  

 

because I’d made it

i\'d found the right road regardless

albeit a dusty road filled with pot holes

but the one in which had light.