It’s officially been one month since the last time that we spoke,
And there are days where I am still trying to pick up the pieces that you broke.
And most days I am doing pretty well,
But there are other days where I am still reminded that I am in the midst of Hell.
Because every once in a while you cross my mind,
And I am reminded of what was once a happier time.
And on that one month anniversary it hit me pretty hard,
And it left me knowing that I am still going to feel scarred.
It will take time for things to get better after everything that occurred,
Because I hate to admit it that there are so many lines that are still blurred.
Because there are still so many thoughts that are running through my head,
Because I still remember all of the words that were said.
And that is how I knew I loved you, because after everything you did, I still am hoping for you to
come to your senses,
And I know that if you reached out, I would be willing to mend those fences.
Because no matter what I do, you still have that hold over me,
And I have accepted the fact that this is how it is always going to be.
Because I will always love you, and I hate to admit it,
That I know this is something that I will never be able to quit.
Because I can’t sit here and say there has been no one else since you,
Just none of them do everything that you could do.
I don’t get excited when I see them, and then don’t give me butterflies,
And their smile doesn’t lighten up the gray skies.
And their eyes don’t sparkle the way that your did,
And I don’t get that love story of knowing them since they were a kid.
And as I’m sitting here writing this, all of those feelings are coming back,
And all of the work that I put in is slowly starting to turn black.
Because it has never hurt this bad with anyone before,
And there is nothing I want more.
Then for you to come back and finally realized you made a mistake,
Because you never being in my life again is something that I can’t take.