Happy birthday
Another year
Another day
With all this pain
Happy birthday
Another year
Another day
What a shame
Happy birthday to me
Never thought I’d make it to eighteen
There were times where I could never think that far into the future
Happy birthday to me
Finally reached adulthood
Which I never thought I would
Happy birthday to me
Nah fuck that
Let’s rewind, let’s retract
Let me take it back
Back to all those birthdays
Where I had more tears in my eyes
Then smiles on my face
Crying for multiple hours
Family didn’t know what was going on
Behind closed doors
Happy birthday they sang to me
Trying to create happy memories
But when they fell asleep
Is when all the negativity
Finally kicked in
Remembering
All the pain I had suffered
All the pain I was suffering with
Didn’t want to deal with this shit anymore
Just laying in bed
Not alone tho
Had all those voices that were inside my head
Kept me company on my birthday
Were talking to me more than my family
I remember one birthday
I wanted it to be my last day
Wanted all the pain to just fade away
Damn can’t believe I almost killed myself on my birthday
Happy birthday
Another year
Another day
With all this pain
Happy birthday
Another year
Another day
What a shame
Happy birthday to me
Never thought I’d make it to eighteen
There were times where I could never think that far into the future
Happy birthday to me
Finally reached adulthood
Which I never thought I would
Happy birthday to me
Nah fuck that
Let’s rewind, let’s retract
Let me take it back
Back to that birthday where I almost did it
Almost killed it
Almost took my last breath away
Almost had the same two dates
On my fucking grave
You don’t know how many times that day
Has played in the back of my mind
Consuming me from the inside
One of my darkest times
Fuck man
Being suicidal on your birthday
Hurts in the worst way
That’s supposed to be your day
But instead you want it to be your last day
Just thinking about it
Brings tears to my eyes
But nah I ain’t ever gonna cry
These thoughts
These voices
These memories
Have brought out enough tears from me
To last centuries
For the longest time, they were my worst enemies
Never left me alone
Not on the holidays
Not on test days
Not even on my birthdays
Happy birthday
Another year
Another day
With all this pain
Happy birthday
Another year
Another day
What a shame
Happy birthday to me
Never thought I’d make it to eighteen
There were times where I could never think that far into the future
Happy birthday to me
Finally reached adulthood
Which I never thought I would
Happy birthday to me
Nah fuck that
Let’s rewind, let’s retract
Even with all the pain
Never gonna take it back
Those days made me stronger
Those days shaped me
Into who I am today
Wouldn’t change that for anything
So you know what
Happy birthday to me
Finally made it to eighteen
And I’m the happiest I have ever been
So it’s time to celebrate
All of my achievements
All of my hard work
The hard work I put into myself
To better myself
To better my health
Now I’m living me best life
From now on, only positivity
So happy birthday to me