illuminater14

My pain

My pain

My heart keeps on breaking, and I find myself unable to stop it from its constant shatter.
I wonder when it will all end?
This pain that only seems to be growing, suffocating and reminding me that I am all alone.
The mask more intertwined, sewn into my skin
When will I take it off?
When will I end this pain?
I can feel it penetrating deeper and deeper into my flesh, my flesh that only thickens adapting to this intrusive violation leaving it marked, only harmed.
My eyes once brown filled with wonders and dreams that I once thought I could fulfill are now dull and hold so much bitterness, once bright as it took on life now, they are clouded, shadowed by invasive darkness.
My heart once filled with love and content no longer there, I now strain down to pick up the pieces that were left behind, pieces only good enough to pierce once delicate skin.
Why can\'t it go away?
Why do I feel the more I age the more chained down I am with these emotions that slowly darken my once bright soul?
My dear walls
My only comfort the ones that have seen and have kept my secrets, they cry... and look upon me only they can feel and see as I slowly fade away from who I once used to be.