I listen to sad songs
In order to confuse my mind,
For I remind myself not to be happy
For happiness doesn\'t exist;
Do we live in a world that doesn\'t care?
For both my parents are dead,
So why shouldn\'t I be dead?
For I\'ll be less of a burden...
My greatest revelation is facts
For the roses don\'t grow all the time
I just want to express myself
Without being judged
And somebody turn off the lights
For I shall disappear
And all the world will never see me, again
My mother was a crackhead
And my father was a deadbeat
I wonder if I am a deadbeat on this earth
Some people say that death is painless
Well I shall die a painless life--
For life is painless when you don\'t feel anything
Am I supposed to die this very minute
Or am I supposed to die after a long day\'s fast?
For I\'ve been fasting my whole life
For a love so true,
But when am I going to get my star?
Tomorrow can be any day of the week
And I am skinny to the point of shock
And hopefully I will be skinnier by tomorrow,
For tomorrow my heart-shaped box
Shall rot;
And yes I am hurting
Hurting to the point of no return
My eyes are bloodshot from no sleep
And my dead parents make promises
They can\'t keep,
For I hear them in my dreams
Screaming at me
They must know that I\'m dying too
For I am nobody\'s daughter, except God\'s
And he is always there for me, more than ever
So why do I feel this treacherous way?
Well maybe it\'s because I had shitty people for parents
And none of them gave a crap about me
And I am forced to live this lie;
Why must they lie to me about life?
For life is worth skeletons
And I shall be the next one
Under the grave...
Dear God, will you give me roses at my funeral?
For I trust you more than anybody else;
For you are my only friend in the world
And no one else,
For everybody else betrays me and my peace of mind
Who needs this world anyway?