13LaurenD

I Deleted It

And just like that, I don’t have any of the memories anymore,

And it feels like I am one step closer to closing that door.

It was one of the hardest things that I ever had to do,

But it allowed me to finally let go of everything you put me through.

It feels like the weight of the world has been lifted off of my shoulder,

And it feels good to know that I am allowing myself to grow older.

To move on from my past, and to finally let you go,

And to allow myself to heal and grow.

And for the time being, I am only going to take care of myself,

And put my love life up on a shelf.

And I have so much that I want to get done,

And I need to focus on showing everyone that they gave up on the one.

The one who would always be there for you through thick and thin,

And now I need to show you that being with me would have been a win.

Because I am no longer going to feel like I am not good enough for you,

And it is not my fault because of everything that you put me through.

I have so many goals that I want to achieve,

And for the first time in my life, I am finally starting to believe.

That it can all happen, it can all come true,

And in a weird way, I owe a lot of that to you.

If you didn’t hurt me so bad, I would still be holding on,

And I am so thankful that you are finally gone.

And not just the pictures, but all of the memories as well,

And I am finally allowing myself to heal, as you can probably tell.

And I am excited to become a mystery that you know nothing about,

And I can’t wait for you to be filled with those feelings of doubt.

Because the next time you see me, I will not be the same,

And you will be broken, and you will be the only one to blame.

Because when I am in the best place of my life, you will start to feel how I had felt for so long,

And you will know how it feels when you do a good person wrong.

Because the day will come when you will be the one crying,

And you can only blame yourself for all of the games and all of the lying.