am I just being dramatic?
it\'s stupid trying to fight my own brain.
get my out of the past
it won\'t let go of me
i want to forget everything.
the pills only make the suicidal thoughts go away.
i wish it would make the flashbacks disappear
or at least the anxiety.
maybe the hypervigilance?
i don\'t want to have to work through my past
to make it go away.
i\'ve lost more than half my life
to a disorder i didn\'t know i had until last summer.
it pains me
to think how other people
are able to live their lives
while im stuck in the past.