It was 1 am
When I came home
to find you, my beloved,
hanging above the bed.
I stood in the doorway,
Looking up at you
As the tears streamed
down my face.
I had never felt more
unlike myself
as I did
then.
I doubled over
with the weight of my failure.
Cuz I had failed
And not just you,
but me too...
It was at that moment
That I realised
I never loved you
No, I just lived you.