13LaurenD

The Past

It can be so hard to let go of the past,

Especially when it comes down to something that you were hoping was going to last.

But the only way to move on is to finally let it go,

And even when it gets hard, try not to let those feelings show.

You have to keep it moving, even when you are breaking inside,

Because eventually you will feel okay, and you will no longer feel the need to hide.

There are pieces of me that I am still trying to heal,

And in the process of getting better, it is okay to allow myself to feel.

To know that I did everything that I could do,

But even though it was my best, I guess it still wasn’t good enough for you.

And I am finally starting to be okay with that reality,

Because eventually I will be able to find someone who will be able to see.

Someone who will see all of my good qualities from the start,

And not someone who is not going to choose to play games with my heart.

And do everything in their power to destroy my mind,

Because people like that aren’t worth my time.

I have given up to much of my life for people who don’t care,

But I know it is not my fault, because a heart like mine is rare.

I do everything in my power to make sure that everyone else is okay,

Even when I am falling apart every single day.

From here on out, I am only going to take care of me,

And finally allow myself to grow into everything that I want to be.

There was a time when I never thought I would be okay again because of you,

But I finally realized that it is not true.

Because of you, I finally know what I deserve,

And I was finally able to grow a backbone and get the nerve.

To not be afraid to let go of everything that I know to try something new,

And to finally work and overcome everything that I have been through.

In a way I owe my future growth and success to you,

Because you made me realize I don’t need anyone else, especially after everything you put me 

through.