I don’t think about my future
Don’t give me a god damn lecture
I only think about my past
My life isn’t moving that fast
So many bad memories
So many internal enemies
My childhood wasn’t great
It all started when I was eight
Didn’t have any friends
I just wanted my life to end
Couldn’t talk to my parents
Cause they thought my life was perfect
Got bullied all the time
I just told people I was fine
People just thought I was an object
With no feelings
Didn’t want to wake up in the mornings
Didn’t want to deal with my life
So why even try
Didn’t want to live
Didn’t want to give
Don’t know how I survived
Don’t know how I arrived
At the thought of depression
Never had a therapy session
I only think about my past
Don’t know how to move forward
My life was always awkward
People always told me I would fail
Or end up in jail
Got so nervous
Got so anxious
When talking to people
I think these memories are fatal
Will never be able
To feel better
Hopefully this won’t last forever
Don’t want to be living
When will this end? Never
Are you kidding
I’m hiding
These feelings inside
What can I expect
In the future?
More disrespect?
Or more self hatred?
Maybe I should get wasted
Maybe I will forget
All of this negativity
I need to find a remedy
Something that’s not therapy
Maybe I just need to move on
Learn to forget
Maybe that’s what I will do
Just forget