You make me feel this warmth
A strange warmth from my heart, flooding through my veins
Sitting outside, reaching out toward the wilted rose, careful of its thorns
Leaning closer to it with a smile as it starts to rain
The water dripping over my warm and scarred body
And it feels good, I feel happy, no longer sad
Strange how you make me feel that way, I just want you to love me
So desperately, so bad
Because the truth is-
I love you, with every notification of your text, every stupid joke
My heart beats a little quicker, my smile widens just a little
The weight on my shoulders loosens, and I feel a rush of excitement that I almost choke
I once used to want to walk toward Death, but now you stand in the middle
Every stupid fight we have, our little banters
You\'re memes and humor, they just light something in me
A strange ethereal fire, burning along my being, a reactor
That makes me feel almost light, laughing, feeling happy
My broken parts finally complete
But I know you have your own pains
You\'ve told me, and act all cool and nonchalant
Shrugging it off if it gets dark or rains
But I know, in some foreign part of you, it hurts your heart
And I want to be there for you
I\'m sorry I\'m not perfect, neither is my life, but I will always be there
Don\'t push me away, I know what its called, don\'t disassociate, I wish you\'d see yourself from my view
Because to me, you\'re not broken, you\'re not perfect, not weak or scared
You\'re beautifully imperfect, forget all the screams from your parents
Because you are not a fuck-up, you\'re just your own unique you
No more pills, no more antidepressants
Don\'t try to end your life so soon when there\'s so much more you could do
When there\'s so much people who love and need you
When I need you
And sometimes, I\'m not sure if you love me back the same
Because sometimes I dream of you and me, dancing in the rain
Like little flashes, laughing, smiling, hand in hand, wearing your sweater
Walking through the storm together
Parting the clouds, not minding the stormy weather
As long as I have you
And sometimes I think about what it would be like if you hurt me
But I hope that just like you\'re my one and only, you won\'t cheat
Even though you\'re far away, that warmth you bring helps me sleep
Saying goodnight, then good morning, talking all afternoon
I can\'t stop thinking of you
What it\'d be like when we\'re together, you me and your dog, Buster
Strange, how just one flirty remark makes me flustered
Evolving from all the sadness and darkness we were
Of course, pain will still come, it is a part of everything
But for now, you are that everything
And again, I\'m sorry I\'m not perfect
I know I have broken parts, conditions, defects
But I will try to be there for you always
Through rain, lightning, darkness, or any pain
Know that I\'m here for you, that I don\'t hate you, that no matter how much you push me away I\'ll be here
Through scars and tears
I\'ll listen to every conversation, every interpretation, every imagination of constellations
Be with you through every laugh, every angry emotion, any dream you\'d want to persue
Because the simple truth is, Jason
I love you