I don\'t know what I\'m doing
I\'ve lost track of why I\'m here
You used to be so welcoming
But now your motives are unclear
And now I\'m stuck
Every part of me wants to concede
Give in to all you\'ve done and scream
You say I have an addictive personality
Well, maybe I\'m addicted to this to
The pain
The drama
The stress
The toxins you fill me with
I\'m addicted
And dependent on you
And it\'s your own doing
You know exactly what you\'ve done
No need to go in depth
I got so good at being untrue
So good at lying to you
At lying to myself
I don\'t know who I am anymore
Drip poison in my mouth
So that anyway you want me
Anything you need, I do
While I disappear further into myself
It makes me choke
But it\'s so sweet
To be needed
Wanted
For once
You removed 1 glass of poison
And replaced with with a second
With 3 times the concentration
But the 4th time\'s the charm, I guess
Swimming in this blackness
Covered in inky dark
And the lies
And the backstabbing
And the control
That you seek
Have created a rift between us
Which I\'m losing the desire to bridge
With each and every day
You\'ve stolen my time
And my effort
And my mind
But I will not allow you
To take
My heart