13LaurenD

A New Chapter

I never thought I would be here, but here we are,

Finally being able to heal after the heartbreak and all of the scars. 

Moving on from you and finally putting you in the past, 

Because I knew that the pain wouldn’t be forever, and that it wasn\'t going to last.

And I know there will be times when I hear your name, and there will be a little bit of pain,

But for the most part, I have been able to remove myself from that chain.

Because you had a hold on me because I loved you so much,

And it started from the first time that we touched.

But I know that thinking about it is what is allowing me to hold on,

And with that, the feelings for you will never actually be gone.

I know I didn’t want it to be over, but this is the end of our story,

Because it is time for me to walk into my own glory.

I can’t do that if my mind is still occupied with you,

Because I will always be thinking about what you put me through.

This is not the way that I wanted it to end,

But I am not going to put myself through this again.

I forgive you, and I have nothing bad to say,

Since there was a time when you were the highlight of my day.

But I can no longer give you my time or let you occupy my thoughts,

Because thinking about you breaks my heart and leaves my stomach in knots.

It is now my time to allow myself to live my dreams,

And to get myself back together after breaking my seams.

For someone who took advantage of the love that I had in me,

Because you knew that you and I were never going to be.

But I will no longer question why I couldn’t be good enough for you,

Because you and I both know that none of that is true.

In reality, it was the other way around,

And you knew that you loving me was only going to bring me down.

Thank you for showing me everything that I never want to be apart of,

And for showing me the opposite of true love.

Thank you for not giving me what I deserve, and for allowing me to grow,

And now it is time for you to sit back and enjoy the show.

Because even though it didn’t workout out between me and you, and it broke me in two, 

Because of you I was able to become an author, and that is something I guess I owe to you.