Is it bad to want to be forgotten?
For myself to be eradicated from other’s memories.
I don’t want them to remember me.
To remember my mistakes, or even my accomplishments.
I want to be translucent.
Someone you walk by and don’t even notice.
I want them to wonder whose contact it is in their phone.
I don’t want to be seen.
I have no craving to be a “main character.”
I am fine being the actor who is blurred the whole 2 minutes they are in the film.
I don’t want to exist.
Am I suicidal?
Maybe. Maybe not.
I just know I want to disappear.
Like a missing person, except no one knows I’m missing.
Do you understand?