Sometimes, it feels like nobody cares
Like my words are a waste of air
Writing another poem nobody\'s going to read
Thinking things no one else could ever conceive
Skin paling at another one of my episodes
Ignore the shaking, keep smiling, don\'t lose it please, just be composed
Hands itching to grab the nearest blade and hold it pressed to my skin
Cut, cut, the pain away, slash until it all stops hurting, keep at it
Breathing in and out slowly, sorry Mrs. Therapist, your exercise isn\'t working
Trying to believe I\'m something, trying to swim through the dark waters but truth is, I\'m drowning
Bright lights going fuzzy, noises blending together, standing in the middle of stormy weather
Cutting, destroying to create something new, but it doesn\'t work, starving myself to keep slender
And nobody cares
Why would they? Life\'s not fair
Who would give a fuck about another stupid teenager
With stupid thoughts, they\'re just hormones, deal with it, right?
Because you have your own battles to fight
Not even my so called family and friends
Would help if I tried to make it all end
I could be sitting next to them, and they wouldn\'t care
I could cut myself or slit my throat and they would probably just stare
Because, honestly, who would care
About me? Who, no, what am I? Nothing
Just a big nothing trying to be something
Something I\'m not, trying to run from the truth, the dark and forlorn
But the truth is, I was always bound to be alone
Going day by day, dealing with all of this shit
Tired of dealing with all of it
Feeling like I\'m crazy, I must be, I have to be mental
No, Dad, please stop taking fentonyl
Screaming, crying on the inside
Wanting with my all sometimes to just die
Seeing everyone else smiling, holding each others hands
Hugging, giving a shoulder to cry on
Looking in each others eyes, saying, \"shh, I understand\"
While I\'m over here alone, my insomnia keeping me up til dawn
To keep going on in life
Trudging through mud and strife
Trying to not drown
And nobody cares
Why would they, its just a frown
Why would they care
I\'m just nothing
Why would you care
I\'m not something