I stare with hungry eyes at the tiny screen with letters from the person I love the most
“I’m too busy”, “Sorry I was with my friends”, “I have work”
All true, real reasons, for why I wait for hours and hours hoping to receive a response
I respond in seconds but you take hours
Understand
You say you’re stressed, you yell, you scream, you ignore
Occasionally
You too see me as the one you love the most
Often
You forget
To reply, to inform, to arrive, to upkeep, to understand, to realize
You forget to remember
That I’m there
That it’s my first time alive too
I’ve felt broken
Destroyed
Unnecessary
A backup
Asked for care, you forget
I make free time to give you
You take my free time and dont even give yours in fucking return
Memories
So close we were, before
Time
Love
I had it all
Now I feel like
Routine
Get out of my head
I text
You mute notifications
Complain
I’m wrong
Kill me
I’m someone you keep for entertainment
For fun
To make your day better and then
Abandon
And so I stare, hungrily
At the responses dried than those deserts in Arizona we visited when you truly loved me
Hoping you would fall back in love with me
But somewhere my faith falls back
The longer you take to answer
The more I realize i\'m never going back
GetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetoutGetout
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