As you look around a crowd you see one thing
people
where as I see you and every individual
I see me in the reflection of your eyes locked in awkward eye contact
yet you do not smile
or even nod,
you keep scanning
looking around,
Do you really look?
at first I pretend that maybe I was unnoticed, but no
you purposefully ignored me
I doubt
I think to myself, no there is no way
I\'m sure it was a mistake,
do you hate me, or how I look
I feel overwhelmed,
consumed by my thoughts.
I look down and try to ignore,
but to my surprise when I look up again you\'re gone.
Confused I am left,
I only looked down for a moment there is no way you left so soon
I ponder, until finally
It clicks,
this whole time I was looking around the room,
looking for someone who was judging me,
I became so consumed by that thought alone,
what stopped me from simply smiling or nodding at you,
I did what I feared would happen to me
Overthinking how people see me,
yet again left embarrassed,
saying to myself it wont happen again,
knowing tomorrow will be the same
or maybe it wont