as I see myself in the mirror
Nacked and bare
Nothing to cover
Nothings to hide behind
I see the scars
Ranging from red to purple and white
But its not enough
Its never enough
I need more
More scars
More blood
Deeper
And even deeper than before
Not just a few pearls of red spilling out
No
No I need rivers and oceans of red
I need to see the white bone underneath
I need to peel it all of
I need to feel it
I need the pain
So unbearable
To the point where I feel like I am dying
All to just feel alive
All to just to keep myself alive
But for what
Whats even the point
Why not just end it all
oh right thats it
…………….
I remember now…