my bus got cancelled this morning
and even though i knew it wasn’t coming
i still looked in the direction
hoping to see it come down the road.
i haven’t messaged in awhile
and even though i knew you wouldn’t message first
i still check if you’re typing
hoping you think about me too.
you tend to share a part of my mind
thinking about what could’ve been
what i could’ve done differently
but no matter what
i knew you didn’t feel the same
i knew it wouldn’t happen
i knew you didn’t think about me
like i thought of you.
i knew that no matter what i did even if i did things differently
you wouldn’t have liked me too
you wouldn’t write about me like i do for you
you wouldn’t look at pictures of us and smile like i do
and it hurts
knowing that all my hope was false
because i think my heart will always hold a space for you
and it hasn’t let you go.