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CONVERSATIONS WITH MY MOTHER

 

 

When I was a toddler, with a nice doll in my arms, my mother used to talk to me quite a lot,

in Spanish!

She was mostly a bit lonely at home- doing her chores.

When I grew up she started slowly but surely talking about her life as a teenager and young

woman.

Going out with a group of girls and her older sister.

Drive-in talks.

Juke-box talks.

Smoking the whole-time menthol cigarettes.

Dancing.

Considered herself very shy.

Flirting nonetheless with military foreign specimen!

Officers of many nations- soldiers of many spots.

In mission most of them in Texas, New Mexico- crossing the border to go to drives-in.

Talks about her first kisses to American soldiers- no more dating with those 3

A fascinating dating period and kisses to a German soldier, ‘’he was so attractive and gentle’’

she used to tell me- yet it did not go on.

Tight courtship from a Greek officer.

No career ambition possible.

Done with compulsory school.

No obligation of house chores at home.

My father won.

Approached by him during a fake corrida exhibition.

He gave his uniform photo to her.

She smiled and ignored him.

Met him by ‘’chance’ ’in drive in juke box night club.

The real dating started that would end up in marriage in 2 years.

Talks about her first off spring’s name if female, she chose exactly

my current name, from a famous Italian actress.

My mother’s conversations

Simple, sober and refined wedding ceremonial- just few invited, no more.

Bridal veil covering her thin face.

Long beautiful and thick black hair. Extremely thin as a young woman.

My mother’s tenderness and harshness was famous among us the children.

Taught by her how to use pink lipstick properly.

Taught by her how to wash myself properly.

No future husband’s thoughts or words.

My mother would have learnt house chores and cooking in Italy, as spouse and mother,

not earlier.

 

My mother everyday’s  talks on my future as a woman.

She dreamt of better options.

Studies.

Identification of mens’ interest.

First talks about sex, (not at school for me).

My mother’s talks when I started sharing my first poems at the age of 17.

She was delighted.

She used to say: ‘’ I have faith in you, do not disappoint me’’!

One morning while cooking my favourite French fries she said:’’ you will experience attractions to men’’!

 

‘’If you feel a first issue, set your mind free’’! The sooner the better’’.!

‘’First meetings should be pleasant, no issues of any kind’’

El encuentro de amor debe  de ser placentero, no un problema desde principio.

‘’Set your mind free of useless attractions, that lead to issues even before starting

set your mind free’’!

 

Italy, particular nation, she learnt soon that no male specimen would come into a home

without a 2 year investigation.

Used to be dragged into homes by mothers with flattery- a good job first!

Marriage proposal would come within 5 year time at least.

My mother had a faster mind set.

My mother’s chats.

Used to read romantic British novels in bed.

Defined already Italian native speaker by accent, grammar and pitch.

Accused of being too condescending.

(Her beauty admired and envied by most relatives).

Enchanting laughter.

One morning, preparing her bag to got to the hospital, small surgery, (we were in Mexico),

I was reading English poems at my desk.

Had to learn English!

Her heart stopped beating in 3 days forever!

My girl’s life suddenly took a sharp steering into another direction, very different from the one

dreamt by her!

Harsh direction from then on.

It provided me no mercy at all!

Tenacious to live!

 

When I was a toddler, with a nice doll in my arms, my mother used to talk to me quite a lot,

in Spanish!

She was mostly a bit lonely at home- doing her chores.

When I grew up she started slowly but surely talking about her life as a teenager and young

woman.

Going out with a group of girls and her older sister.

Drive-in talks.

Juke-box talks.

Smoking the whole-time menthol cigarettes.

Dancing.

Considered herself very shy.

Flirting nonetheless with military foreign specimen!

Officers of many nations- soldiers of many spots.

In mission most of them in Texas, New Mexico- crossing the border to go to drives-in.

Talks about her first kisses to American soldiers- no more dating with those 3

A fascinating dating period and kisses to a German soldier, ‘’he was so attractive and gentle’’

she used to tell me- yet it did not go on.

Tight courtship from a Greek officer.

No career ambition possible.

Done with compulsory school.

No obligation of house chores at home.

My father won.

Approached by him during a fake corrida exhibition.

He gave his uniform photo to her.

She smiled and ignored him.

Met him by ‘’chance’ ’in drive in juke box night club.

The real dating started that would end up in marriage in 2 years.

Talks about her first off spring’s name if female, she chose exactly

my current name, from a famous Italian actress.

My mother’s conversations

Simple, sober and refined wedding ceremonial- just few invited, no more.

Bridal veil covering her thin face.

Long beautiful and thick black hair. Extremely thin as a young woman.

My mother’s tenderness and harshness was famous among us the children.

Taught by her how to use pink lipstick properly.

Taught by her how to wash myself properly.

No future husband’s thoughts or words.

My mother would have learnt house chores and cooking in Italy, as spouse and mother,

not earlier.

 

My mother everyday’s  talks on my future as a woman.

She dreamt of better options.

Studies.

Identification of mens’ interest.

First talks about sex, (not at school for me).

My mother’s talks when I started sharing my first poems at the age of 17.

She was delighted.

She used to say: ‘’ I have faith in you, do not disappoint me’’!

One morning while cooking my favourite French fries she said:’’ you will experience attractions to men’’!

 

‘’If you feel a first issue, set your mind free’’! The sooner the better’’.!

‘’First meetings should be pleasant, no issues of any kind’’

El encuentro de amor debe  de ser placentero, no un problema desde principio.

‘’Set your mind free of useless attractions, that lead to issues even before starting

set your mind free’’!

 

Italy, particular nation, she learnt soon that no male specimen would come into a home

without a 2 year investigation.

Used to be dragged into homes by mothers with flattery- a good job first!

Marriage proposal would come within 5 year time at least.

My mother had a faster mind set.

My mother’s chats.

Used to read romantic British novels in bed.

Defined already Italian native speaker by accent, grammar and pitch.

Accused of being too condescending.

(Her beauty admired and envied by most relatives).

Enchanting laughter.

One morning, preparing her bag to got to the hospital, small surgery, (we were in Mexico),

I was reading English poems at my desk.

Had to learn English!

Her heart stopped beating in 3 days forever!

My girl’s life suddenly took a sharp steering into another direction, very different from the one

dreamt by her!

Harsh direction from then on.

It provided me no mercy at all!

Tenacious to live!