Words to say, Someday
Don’t ask me to trust you
Don’t tell me to calm down
After what you put me through
i don\'t want your crown
And I don’t want your money
Your high and mighty seat
All pretty and neat
“It was just a joke”
You think it’s funny?
To see me choke
Unable to breathe?
I have all right to be angry
filled with rage
You locked a canary
Inside of a cage
You tell me to be quiet
You tell me to hush
Don’t start a riot
Well, i don\'t want to shush
silent and compliant
I want to be loud
Annoying and proud
it’s not “love”-
You balling your fist
Grabbing my wrist
“I never hurt you!”
Oh really, is that true
You say you cared
So explain why i’m so scared
When you cracked my head
did you not want me dead?
Did you think you were being fair
When you ripped out hair
Did you love me then?
What you did din’t count
oh way back when
When you made me bleed
Both inside and out
Was that “just the thing i need”
I \"SUCK IT UP\"
don\'t I?
drank the poisoned cup
didn\'t scream, didn\'t cry
never said a word
didn’t question why
made sure my tears went unheard
my shoulders sag
a human punching bag
not sure if i\'d get \'Kind And Serene\'
or \'Raging Machine”
thought that it was average
to be the source of rage
Quickly from one mood to the next
not knowing with whom i’d dine
Dearest reader,
Out in the ether
Maybe you think this the abuse of a lover
How sad you must be to find that this was my mother
I\'ve found that this wasn\'t okay
and I\'ll say it aloud
...
someday
Well God,
Surely it’s written in holy text
Cause “everything happens for a reason”
I need to get this off my chest
Cause that’s a valid explanation
“Hardships last for only a season”
“All i need is salvation”
“Just trust in “God”, it’ll all work out you’ll see”
answers like these i just can’t stand
Well god, since i got your word
Here’s one from me
I don’t understand
And i don’t see
I find the very idea of you rather absurd
Well God, have you heard
Is this what you wanted?
For me to live a life so haunted
Well god, give me a sign
if you even exist
If this is your design then
When will you give me a little assist
Well god, i’m not sure
if your even here
Well God,
…did you dissapear?