Dear God,
I was doing everything right.
Reading your word,
Praying every day and every night,
Attending church on the Sabbath.
I believed in you,
You helped me.
So why must you torture me so now?
You tested me,
You left me.
So I gave up on you.
Because it seems you gave up on me.
So now what?
I try to connect with you again,
because I miss you.
But I can\'t feel you here no more.
I don\'t like being tested I don\'t like trails.
I was a good person but you someone\'s agency...
Take that good person away.
You put your value of agency over a good person.
I don\'t understand. You could have protected me.
So not only can I not forgive myself, God, but maybe you too.