Couldn’t i have had another chance
A break
From life
And with you
Couldn\'t i have
Given up already
My limp body
Sagging on the
Hospital bed
Like yours
Couldn\'t i have
Been there
When i wasn\'t
Couldn\'t i have
Saved you
From dying
Even when it was out of my control?
Couldn\'t i have
Had that conversation
Said that apology
Gave that hug
bid goodbye?
Couldn\'t i have
Gotten to know you more
Even with my six year old self
Not knowing
You were dead?
Couldn\'t you have
Spent more time with me?
You loved me, didnt you?
Because I love you
And i couldn\'t have
Had
Any more time with you
It was out of my control
But,
If i ever do see you again,
Dad,
Beloved father,
Possibly in heaven,
I hope to god not in hell
Maybe as a spirit on this earth
Or wherever dead people go,
I will tell you
I love you
And
Please,
Please.
Don\'t leave me
again.