This time will not be like the others, and this time I mean what I say,
Because I have already seen it play out, and I will not let it end the same way.
I will not give you that kind of power to have that control over me,
And to get lost in the thoughts of everything that you and I could be.
I have been down this road before, and I have learned so much,
And I will not get lost by the feeling of your touch.
As much as I want to believe it all to be true, I need to put my feelings of you aside,
Because even though you are not the same person, I can not forget all of the tears that I cried.
I was torn apart for years over someone who never cared about me,
And I am frustrated with myself for taking so long to see.
Even though that person and I are done,
I still think all of the time about how my life would be different if I had found one.
And while there is a very good chance that I will never see him again,
I will never forget the harsh words that came from someone who I thought was my friend.
He’s out of my life, but the damage still remains,
And when I hear his name, there is still a little bit of pain.
And I am trying to stay positive and not let the same thing happen with you,
But part of me feels like there is always a chance that that will end up being true.
Regardless of what happens, the power is now in your hands,
I have no other future plans.
Even though I know I will be waiting to hear from you,
I know there is nothing else for me to do.
I have learned a lot and grown from when this happened before,
And I am not going to let someone control my life anymore.
I am going to keep working for everything that I want to get,
Because I still have so much to do, and I am not even close to being done yet.
I hope it works out with you, but if it doesn’t, that is okay,
Because I am not letting anyone control how I achieve my goals throughout the day.