I learnt that
First, I am not a good friend
When we get into a quarrel, my first instinct is to apologise and hide
From your wrath or failure of rejection
I do not know
But I know that
Secondly, I am a bad daughter
I offer barely any sort of assistance to you when we both are clearly struggling
I am sorry
Because I realised that
Neither am I a good student
A mix of procrastination and apathy
Like a stage VI bed cancer
And lastly, I am a bad person overall
In any role I am in
A friend who is non-existent
A daughter bringing disgrace to the family
A student who does barely the minimum
A leader bringing the team to failure
A team member who brings nothing to the table
I could go on and on about every flaw of myself
But I would not want to bore you with my insecurities,
my overthinking with no plan to change in my mind
Just a highly painful self-awareness constantly haunting me
I believe I have been enlightened on my suffocating negativity
That I can\'t contain under my ominous appearance,
ill-fitting jeans and bleeding scars
Thank you.