Hey dad, how are you?
I hope everything\'s been good for you since we left
You know, when mom took me from you and your abuse
When you broke her nose and watched her as she wept
And I know it was probably for the best we left but
One question keeps bothering me; Why? I mean just-
Why did you have to be such a shitty dad
Was the beer bottle more important than my mom and me
Because that\'s just sad
Have you ever even thought of me or cared at all
Ever wonder about my life?
That boy I was when we left grew up, was enthralled
At everything he touched and saw
Mom found someone else but me and them never got along
So the boy learned to put up some walls
He moved from state to state, learning, thriving, playing tunes
Until he got to middle school, then shit got hard
The boy grew into a teenager who learned heartbreak way too soon
Learned the true nature of the cruel world around him
Fights started happening at home, so much screaming and yelling
Increasing the hurt he felt inside
The world was too cruel for the boy, he felt so much pain he started cutting
And it was like all his happiness shriveled up and died
That boy grew into a solemn young man, now in high school
That young broken man is me
With such high iron walls no one could call me a fool
Just going along with the flow, a fixed smile all you can see
So you don\'t see the real me
Do you even remember my birthday?
Its January the fifteenth
For years on that date
I\'d wait for a letter from you
Just a card, a note, some kind of acknowledgement
Some kind of sign that you care for me
Some kind of sentiment
Because we\'re family
And God, I used to be so mad at you
I used to ignore the truth
That I needed you
Another guy to look up to
Someone to share thoughts, conversations, feelings
But your lack of give a fuck is leaving me reeling
You know, there was this one dad who went to the moon
An astronaut who could have done anything but the first thing
The first thing he did was write his child\'s initials on the surface, there\'s no gravity on the moon
So they\'d be there forever
What kind of dad does that?
Not you, so that\'s another dream for me to sever
I mean, you can\'t even make contact
Even when I walk outside, on the beach
There\'s dads with their sons, looking so damn happy
Giggling, holding hands, eating ice cream
When I don\'t even know where you are, why you don\'t care or love me
What did I do wrong for you to hate me?
So yeah dad, just wanted to say
Thanks for not being here or caring about me
Even though I\'m your \"blood\", your \"family\"
But obviously you\'re incapable of love
So I\'ll just say this:
I\'m not mad at you, just disappointed
Disappointed and sad, maybe a little pissed
That I\'m here alone at night writing about you
When you could care less about me
And maybe one day we\'ll meet
Maybe then I\'ll feel complete
But until then, have a nice life dad
Hope its not like mine; sad
I\'ll just be here dealing with stupid daddy issues
Writing worthless words about an uncaring you