No two days are never the same
I wake up
Give thanks to be alive
But then....... when you remember
You think only to survive
Another day of depression
Everything seems black
It seems like every other day
Is back to back
Yes,
the tears form
I can feel them now
Should I let them flow
Or hold it back
I hurt badly
Yet,
you the people
only see me smile
Because I mask it well
But,
I am dying on the inside
If only you really knew
What I am feeling now
Should I end my life
I wish I really knew how
Can I muster the strength one day
I really don\'t know
But somehow
this pain has to go
I can\'t be like this forever
Rotting on the inside
One day I will fall apart
But then
it might be the best thing for me
For my life will be no more
And I\'ll be free....
written by Ainsley Carter aka Mr. Erotica © July 2023