How do I make you see
That I am toxic, broken within?
Even after thinking ten times, it\'s okay
But then the doubts creep back in.
What if I\'m right?
Why is there even a doubt?
Why do people create such situations,
Making me question, turning my world about?
I know I like red flags,
But why don\'t they turn green
When I give my all, my 110 percent?
Why can\'t you let my worries fade, serene?
Why must I always be the bigger person,
Shouldering the weight, seeing my own mess?
Can\'t you try to see how fucked up I am,
Watching you from a distance, feeling less?
Trying to trust, yet breaking every day,
It\'s not your fault, I\'m used to broken souls.
I still get attached, only to have my heart
Shattered, left in scattered wholes.
I write it down, to convey my heart,
Trying to explain is the hardest part.
I need you to talk, to hug, to say it\'s okay,
Is it too much to ask, to feel that way?
I don\'t want a commitment, it\'s a huge word for us,
But at least an assurance, a trust we could discuss.
I was normal at the start, then you pulled me close,
Now you make me feel detached, a distance that grows.
There is a problem, I\'ll start to feel this strain,
At some point, I\'ll fuck up everything, bring pain.
And you won\'t recover, it\'ll ruin what we made,
Turning love into ruin, where memories fade.