This whole time I always felt like I was missing a part of me,
That was preventing me from being who I really wanted to be.
This whole time I was passing along the blame,
And no matter what I did, I would always feel the same.
I so badly wanted to blame everyone else for the way that I would feel,
But I am finally realizing that that is never going to allow me to heal.
I have something inside of me that does not allow me to quit,
And I am finally realizing that things in the past never worked out because they were not the
right fit.
This whole time I was not getting what I wanted because there was something better coming
along the way,
And I am no longer going to feel sorry for myself everyday.
This whole time it never worked out because God was protecting me,
And he was able to notice things that I could not get myself to see.
I was so blind by the way that I wanted it all to end,
And I felt so lost having to go through the same thing over and over again.
Now I realized that it kept happening that way because I was letting it occur,
And now I look back and question what it even was that I was fighting for.
I was giving my all to the wrong people who would never care,
That is why I had to keep questioning why it was never fair.
I was trying to make something happen that was not meant for me,
And for the first time in my life, I feel like I am finally free.
I no longer have to worry about what people think,
And it no longer feels like I am going to sink.
Because I am finally letting go off all of the things that were weighing me down,
And for the last time in my life, I am picking myself up off the ground.
When I get to the other side, I will remember all of those that left me to die,
Because they will not be invited to see me finally touch the sky.