dear john
you’ll never know these words
so it’s okay for me to finally say
that I think of you often
especially as I reflect on my day
I’ve wanted to know you more since day one
I’ve always dreamt about the potential of what we could become
I know it sounds insane
but when I look at you
I see all the possibilities after the rain
if that sounds so impossible to you
then why do you look at me like that too?
Funny how our eyes will tell the truth
I guess it’s just been easier for me to never try
to deny any future of us
and pretend I don’t want you to be in my life
Hold on, while I cover up the undeniable lie
If I could go back
I would’ve definitely introduced myself to you
Give you the first dance at prom
and laughed together by the bowl of juice
If I did…
I wonder where we would be
If I did …
Would you be smiling at this, while you’re sitting next to me?
If I did…
Would we watch our show religiously on Tuesdays?
If I did …
Would we start each morning with prayer, coffee, eggs, and the catch of the bay
There are a lot of what-ifs I would’ve done with you
If only I’d taken a chance and talked to you
So I’ll toast to the possibility of you