how do i tell him im not worthy?
of his love?
of his time?
of his affection?
not to be a “pick me” type
i just have issues.
i don’t think he can handle them
what happens and i lash out in a bipolar episode?
or start to see things again?
What happens when I start to get depressed?
And can’t clean or get out of bed?
What happens when I start to self harm again?
When the scars get fresh?
Or if I pass this onto our kids?
I overthink everything
I’m not easy to calm.
What happens when it all becomes too much?
Do i let him down now before it gets too bad?
Or give him a life he never wishes he had?