Gloria Denise

Painfully Passing the Time

Its 5 o’clock on a saturday

 

and i\'ve run out of ways to pass the time

 

how many more hours until I can busy my mind

 

 

the quiet hasn’t been my friend lately

 

cause its filled with unanwsered maybes

 

 

Maybe it’ll happen again

 

maybe it won’t

 

maybe this boat is sinking quickly

 

and I won’t know how to keep it afloat

 

funny, how death can make you feel like a ghost

 

 

so I try to tie myself

 

to the floaties in my life

 

I call them friends and family

 

but I just refuse to let them see me cry

 

 

my pieces are supposed to be fix

 

I thought that was the deal

 

but I feel more broken than ever

 

because my inner scars  need more time to heal

 

 

so I busy myself with work and school

 

each night I write these poems and letters

 

a clever way to make pain look cool

 

 

well thank you for reading

 

but now its only 5:15

 

time to write another poem

 

while I calm my mind with some tea