One more time
Then never again…
I disconnect from you.
And muffle my senses
From the blaring empathy,
As my focus turns inward.
The suffering ringing my guts…
My instinctual need to cope…
Compelled,
I take this key you keep.
Detaching from impact,
I paint this as harmless–
Since you never miss,
That which is barely gone.
Justifying through the frame
Of equating our wrongs,
Alone, I even the score,
Alone, I lie to myself,
More than I’m lying to you,
With the ‘one more times’,
And ‘never agains’.