all you do is scream
like a fucking alarm clock
screeching over and over
echoing through hallways
nobody cares
nobody hears your cries
they occur far too often
and melt into the backdrop
anything sets you off
or nothing at all
like a newborn baby
or a complaining toddler
but you have no excuse
there is no air
no more room for sadness
no tears can be shed here
but your own
you take up all the room
in the entire house
suffocating my poor lungs
drying me out
turning mama to stone
nobody can feel anything
you privileged little thing
you hold all emotions
captive in your lungs
like white noise
your sobs for help
leave no room for rescue
all we can let out
is a sigh of exhaustion
nobody can tell you no
nothing helps
you hold us all, trapped
in the palm of your hand
I apologize for you
I take the fall, but why?
why must I be the one
to save you
I save you
because mama shouldn’t have to
because she deserves better
because I know
you can’t save yourself
you can’t get help
you can’t stop
you
can’t
shut
the
fuck
up