the ache in my chest
reminds me to breathe
to acknowledge the pain
and relish in the hurt
2 am is when i over dramatize
and romanticize my tears
listening to lyrics that stab my heart
truly in pain but amused all the while
in retrospect my breakdowns mean I\'ve lived
I\'ve dared to open my heart
and break another\'s
i am alive and living and experiencing
have i mentioned my over romantization?
I\'m so glad i can finally connect with taylor
I\'m thrilled to be a teen
the pain feels good
perhaps i really didnt care
which is why I\'m contemplating so hard
the self reflection and the tears
make it all worthwhile
the aesthetic of the broken heart
is so fun to try on
and all this while
i still have to remind myself to breathe
this isn\'t particularly how i wanted the year to go
i do truly wish i didnt have this ache
but the experience exists
and shall remain under my belt
and there are moments i just want to run back to you
feel the high when you smile at me
crossing my fingers hopefully
those become fewer and lesser and nonexistent
it might hurt to see you dance with someone else
but I\'d rather that than dance with you
and i wish on a star
that it hurts you too