sometimes i\'m afraid of love
not because i don\'t i\'ll ever find it
but
because i\'m afraid anyone who loves me
i won\'t be able to love back
because i\'m scared
scared they will leave me
scared they will realize they cannot handle me
scared they will choose someone else
i am always the first girl
never the \'found\' girl
i just want to be found
i want to fall in love and
not be scared
they are gonna
leave me
scared
I
will end up
by myself
with a broken
heart again
I am so so
so scared
tears fall from my eyes
when I fall for someone
because
I know
whats coming
the anxiety
the fear
the desperate want for them to want
me
to
I am
terrified
and
I don\'t know
how to stop it
how to trust someone
with my heart