I felt my heart breaks while i was wondering when did it even start to beat.
just as we said our third goodnight or even the second.
I am blessed with beauty, love, and compassion.
but life gave me so little in patience.
the thought of having you was scary and the thought of you leaving me almost killed me.
when in fact, nothing was even starting nor ending.
I tried to be chill about it.
I tried to sail calm tapestry waters.
while I ,myself, created all sort of turbulence.
when I must have been on my best behavior.
I am not asking for another chance.
I am only asking for you to see the situation and trust your gut.
we\'ve known each other for a few nights now.
I won\'t be greedy and ask for you to stand my short bursts of instability.
but it came of no where mental.
it\'s diabolical and sabotory.
abrasive from within.
when your own senses tell you that all you\'re gonna do in life is getting hurt.
just to realize thst has nothing to do with your own thoughts or mechanism.
and I am tired of band aids, I am tired of stiches.
and it\'s definitely not your fault.
I appreciate your understandings
and analysis.
but believe me when I tell you that I am good
that all I need is some time to adjust.
since the power of the connection we had was used against me.
just like my love to myself was dealt with before.
I am not asking for forgiveness as much as I am asking for you to see me how I am.
I know you see me bare.
soul to soul.
even when our bodies didn\'t even intertwine one another yet.
it\'s just the result of being controlled for years.
I still try and figure out who I really am.
and how I really think.
forgive my mistrust.
focus on my good intentions and motives.
and I promise that with every kiss and every time I get to see your divine smile.
that my guards are coming right off.
I can\'t wait to see what destiny holds for us.
and what we shall make out of it.