I come home each day
more tired than the last one
dropping
into my little space
and thinking
it’s a free for all
and only the hungriest
seem to make it
but I’ve had my fill.
I’m giving up.
I’d like to retreat now
to a nice quiet place
but don’t have a lot of money
so I’m stuck here
in this room
but I can dream
making my own world
melting in and out
of it
one trip
at a time
I can dream…
and there it is
just beyond the closet
a whole blue sky
and a sweet green ocean
in there
a little island in the middle
of it
where palm trees sway
and cool sea breezes
ruffle my hair.
I step into my world
and the sand burns my feet!
I hop hop hop
on my tippy toes
all the way
down to the cold blue water
where I breathe a sigh of relief.
Opening my eyes
I see black shadows
circling and
fear death
but it’s just thousands of little fishes
there to greet me
hiding beneath the surface
of the water
I reach out and grab one
then let it go
laughing
I splash
among them
flipping onto my back
and floating
all the way up
into the sky
to the gods
to the sun
to all the points of light
where golden rays sit
flush on my face.
I can feel them
and this time its for real.