Dear soul, I ache and hurt with indecision
The past and feared future
I’m in quicksand and you know it
Sucking me down, I relax and I’m letting it happen
We are letting it happen
Dear Soul: If I had a safety outlet, would I take it?
Sometimes though, I fight it
I have a great wife and kids, dogs and friends
They love me and I love them
They keep me from introducing myself
To my maker
Dear Soul: the thought rarely leaves me completely
It binds and haunts and taunts and scares me
Randomly the thought pops in my head
Dancing with my emotions and urging me to the abyss
An abyss that’s calling and real and in my face and thoughts
Until I fight it and fight it
And I think of loved ones again and their life after mine
That hurts me more than my life hurt and so I keep on going
Dear Soul - how long can I do this?
What will it take to force these thoughts away?
I think you know what’s needed and what’s right
My head vs heart are in a fierce battle: emotions vs logic
Dear Soul: I am yearning for something just beyond my finger tips
Stretched out, shaking, pleading and begging for purchase
Dear soul: guide me beyond this roller coaster of emotions