Bottom Of the Sea.
I am going down, way, way down to my final resting place where I will never be found
There are no more cheeky naughty smiles on the face of this clown, if I have planned it right it should look like I have accidentally drowned.
The world I live in is no longer a safe place for me to be, I\'m going to swim with the fish is in the Big Blue Ocean Sea.
I have run all the ideas in my head about the best and easiest ways to die, but I didn\'t want to leave anyone a mess to clean up when I commit suicide.
Even in my darkest thoughts it is others I always put first, I hope they have some understanding and don\'t just brush it away has something simply absurd.
If there happens to be anybody who misses me when I am finally gone, i am sorry if it distresses you but it is something that must be done.
My well-prepared plan I have given much thought and reflection, all I need now is the courage to put my plans into action.
Then the chains will be cut, weight lifted, problems will be resolved as I am set free, I wish a fond farewell as I drift to the bottom of the sea.
Nataiella July (2021).