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Hello Father,Or Should I Call You Cheater?

 

You are a part of me,
But you left me so easily;
There was nothing about you I could remember,
So I couldn\'t put you in my life chapter.

I saw you again father,
You hugged me yet I felt empty;
I think you meant to be a stranger,
After all you were never in my memory.

Naive of me to think you came to see me,
When all you ever wanted was money;
I held back my tears, faking looking stronger,
When inside I\'m close to shatter.

You made mother fell into pregnancy,
While you were drowned in infidelity;
She was in pain while you were in pleasure,
Then you used me as a reminder.

You named me after that woman\'s daughter,
You looked happier not because I came here;
You held me yet your mind was with her,
Why did you do this to me father?

I said I\'m fine when I\'m the opposite,
For I want you to see me happy and complete;
So you mourn over what you lost and what you abandoned,
That is my retribution.

Countless times I wish you were six feet under,
So when people ask, easier to answer;
If I said you died, they will stop there,
But if I said you left, when how why stabbing me bare.

Countless times I wish I could change my last name,
For it brings nothing but shame;
You were absent during my worst,
Is it cruel of me to exclude you during my happiest?

I did everything on my own,
So don\'t you dare to say you made me known;
You did nothing to bring me success,
All you ever did was letting people clean up your mess.

They say infidelity is heredity,
It will haunt me eternally;
Will I do betrayal like you father,
Or will I be loyal like my mother?