Kxze♡

What good is it if I am only there?

Click, Click, Click.
All I hear
as I push my pen up and down
attempting to soothe my nerves.

So much to do
so little time
freshman year will be gone
before I realize

What good am I
If I am just there?

What good am I
If I am only doing a
\"decent job?\"

I need to be the best
all of the time

What good am I 
if I am not the best
all of the time.

All of the time.

What good will I be?
What good am I?

Finals are coming soon.
With a rush of wind 
And a hint of nausea 

If I do not win those awards
Make Dean\'s list

Then what am I?

I need to be the best all of the time.
And if I am not, what good am I?

In the world.

\"It\'s okay,\" My friends say,
as I show them my grades, 
A 90 in green, just passing by

\"I wish I was you\"
\"You\'ll be just fine\"
\"An A is still an A\"

That\'s what they all say
Until they are in my mind

Wondering \'What am I?\"

What will I be?
If I am still stuck in green?

Just barely proficient
No, I want to succeed.

If I am still stuck in green
No awards, no accolades
For me. 
I often wonder, is there any future for me?

What good am I, if I am only there?
Sitting in the chair.
Not giving the valedictorian speech.

What good am I, if I don\'t succeed
I need to be the best. 

All of the time.

-kxze