rebellion_in_sanity

WIND OF FATE

\"Wind beneath my wings\"
A line from a song
I used to sing
Other lines faded into obscurity
Within the maze of my mind
Like prehistoric cave paintings
Fading with the passage of time

 

When I was young
I spread my wings
Felt the wind of fate 
Lifting me up 
Like a baby on a swing

 

It lifted me up, 
oh so gently 
Became a tempest 
oh so momentarily
Up and down did I go
Floated in and out 
Benevolence and destruction,
Two sides of the same coin
Like the serene river flows
And, then floods the banks 
And destroys everything 
When it overflows

 

I screamed with joy
When it lifted me high
I screamed in pain
When it brought me down 
Felt like being enshrined in a tomb
Where I could hardly breath
Inhaling deep during ephemeral joys
Holding it during enduring pains

 

Had a life where the sun used to shine
I wanted more
Didn\'t notice when I crossed into
The prohibited place marked with
\"End of Need now 
You are Entering Greed\"

 

Finally feeling empty and tired
One day I closed my wings
Crashed landing on terra firma hurt so bad
But, she took me in her lap
Like a mother 
Welcoming her wayward child back

 

Now I stand 
With firm ground beneath my feet 
I don\'t crave the lift
I feel content with who I am
I feel so happy with what I have
I no longer feel like an adrenaline junky
Riding a flimsy boat on a choppy sea