Such a long stare to just gaze
Such lost time to never fight
I stop and I rewind
Your seraphic face
That drives me insane
But you just gaze
\"What a coward you are\"
\" The same as the previous
And I bet my heart, the next one\"
I fear I will die
And you will still long for my eyes
I fear we will lose our minds
And you\'ll stay stuck to your price
A combination of cowardice and heroism in your smile
Your smile and your price
Nothing related to purity
Or anything kind
Only yourself and your nest
Narcissism in your first shelf
You wear it and
lordly
start soliloquies no one ever heard
\"She looks good in those jeans
Keep her just in need\"
Crestfallen I admit
I close my eyes and I hope
Either you don\'t exist
Or come and speak
I say words I don\'t believe
Like:\" I hope he dies while he sleeps\"
In reality I\'m only adrift
Proof ?The tears on my cheek
The deceitful smiles
The oppressed lies
The bad habits that came back
And shuttered my heart
The bad habits that blackened my light
And haunted my every night
Bad habits that bled my whole life dry
And how I keep them close to me
I don\'t tell and I don\'t shout
I stay calm and carry on with life
They might disappear along with your clouds
Yet I laugh and spread love
I\'m kind and pray for your soul
And I carry carefully my broken heart
Can you learn a bit from that ?
ironic , isn\'t it?
The aftermath of my decisions
Of giving a piece of me
With not one evidential reason
Of
you loving anything about me
What a fool I\'ve been!