A Boy With Roses

As Hollow As the Drugs I Take

I could be in New York
Gazing at a Venetian factory
I could be in a sex shop
Drinking coffee in Paris 
I could be in love in Berlin 
Tied to ribbons of splendid heritage
In a wintry wasteland 

I get so lonely watching the sky
Wondering where the time went 
Replaying the soundtrack of my life
I hear your silence echoing like pain in the morning
When the sky is azure, and I\'m not so sure I\'ll make it 
I feel as hollow as the drugs I take
I feel as light as the cigarettes I smoke 
Drinking beer in the graveyard
I am ephemeral in rain-filled meadows
I close my eyes to a tightrope, a dog-rose
Half-hidden in moonlit shadows 

I feel small in big places
I see faces, framed by cupolas and cornices
Every time I feel like Hell 
Every time I fuck myself 
I remember the ripe scent of your fragrance
But now it\'s vanishing 
I am alone in my eternal suffering 
I want to believe in hope because
I have nothing else to believe in.