When we’re alone
you’re more genuine than anyone I’ve ever known.
When we’re around others
you’re somehow someone completely other
Some days I wish you would’ve stayed
Other days I wish you were far away
Some days I think I will never recover
Other days I think our friendship will be rediscovered
You’re two sides of the same coin at the same time
While I try to change myself for the better, one aspect at a time
You’re never happy with what you have
While I know you don’t even deserve that
I am hardworking
You’re not even willing to try your best
For me harmony and kindness are important
You think you’re above everyone else
I know so much about you
While you probably don’t even know my favourite subject
I thought we had the same beliefs
till I started looking closer
I tell you that I accomplished something
You tell me it isn’t that hard to do
It took me two months to forgive you after our fight
Forgiving my other friends usually takes a day
Because I know if I told them, it had hurt me
They would apologize and not do it again
I know you are that way because of where you grew up and how people treated you
But I also know that’s not an excuse
Now I finally ask myself,
How much did I hate myself to let me be treated this way?
Please reflect on how you treat people and communicate with them
Because it is hurtful
Please think before you talk about something that could be a sensible topic to some
Because it caused me to spiral into bad habits again
Please don’t talk about the fact that you have a thigh gap
Because I felt uncomfortable and insecure when I didn’t
Please don’t talk openly about your unhealthy eating habits
Because it can trigger people, and it made me think I should restrict how much I eat