Maybe my deepest anguish in the world is how I want to be loved so tenderly
With so much love and as much softness as possible
Handled with great care
So in return I can do the same
Maybe everything I’m thinking is insane
It’s unrealistic and just a dream
Maybe my deepest anguish is that of what I don’t need
If I don’t need love then that’s ok but I want it so bittersweetly that it hurts to look it’s way
I crave that intimacy with another
Only I can give myself a love like no other
It’s the anguish of not having it but wanting it so bad
Maybe there’s a lesson in this to be learned
But the lesson isn’t what I crave or yearn
Maybe love will come eventually
And it’ll be a surprise
Maybe I’ll notice that tenderness and look of admiration in someone’s eyes
Maybe my anguish will eventually dissipate and I’ll be ok
But for now love isn’t needed and tenderness can wait
Hopefully losing those feelings and learning patience is key
Then maybe one day my anguish will be replaced with love and everything safe
And when that day comes love won’t be needed because it’ll be received
Tenderness will feel like the warmth that’s been yearned
Intimacy will be in every moment with understanding and care
With admiration for everything that you’ve been through
Anguish will be no more
Taking the weight of the world off of your shoulders
And healing your core
While giving you the love I want to receive just as tenderly
While praying it’s the love that has been craved for