rebellion_in_sanity

In Search of the Real Me

Too many miles have I walked,  
The long relentless lonely journey  
Too many summers scorched me,  
Floods robbed me of my senses,  
Winters numbed me  

 

Too many heartbreaks in lies,  
Too many times did they crush me,  
I had to get up and smile,  
Every single time revulsion strangled me  

 

Summer came, then the rains,  
Everything changed,  
But I didn\'t let those change me  
I went on searching for you, my life,  
Kept searching for the real me  

 

I feel no regrets,  
I don\'t feel any pain,  
Anesthesia courses through my veins,  
Deadening all feelings,  
Devoured by numbness,  
Suspended in a strange world,  
Beyond belief, beyond pain  

 

Only one thought plays in my mind,  
Over and over without pause, on replay,  
Like the scratching sound  
At the end of a broken record  
Where did we lose ourselves  
In all the changes where I didn\'t allow myself to be changed?