Is it possible
To feel
Numb and angry at the
Same time?
When I heard the news
I heard the news that day,
Oh boy!
I felt as if
My own head was
Bashed against that
Cold bathroom sink
I shivered and convulsed
On the
Cold tile floor
My senses shutting down around me
Was this the end?
I was at work when I heard that it had been
Ruled a suicide
And the
Killers were to get off
Scot-free
I fell back down onto the
Cold tile floor
I always felt
Warm and passionate when angry
Bursting at the seams with half-baked
Notions of action
But in this moment I felt a
Cold
Empty
Desolate anger
I went through the motions
Hurried up as 6:00 brought upon the store
Closing
I stayed externally composed
In the car
And when I went home I
Hit the bed and
I fell through
It collapsed under me
A
Black hole opened
And I
Hit that cold tile floor
I tried to
Cry
But the
Tears
Would not
Flow
I felt so
Much and
So little
But had for it
Nothing to show
Except the
Bitter defeat in my heart,
The sense of
Injustice in my soul
The day
Nex Benedict
Died