Usually I’m fine I say
You tell me what you see and I don’t agree
But it’s the truth
It’s feared by me
I can’t see it
And I can’t feel it either
It’s so crushing
And it crushed me even more
What are you so honest for?
I said I ghosted
I don’t mention names
When I leave it’s because I’m fighting myself
I can’t help it
My mind has always been my demon
It’s not a friend
I’ve always wondered when my life would end
Would I even make it to 18?
Look your here
These past couple of days have broke my heart
And I think I need help
But I cant
And I’m sorry but I won’t
This feeling reminds me I’m alive
This painful feeling of sadness
Makes me stand on my feet everyday
Because there was never a point where happiness was my motivation for anything
It’s not deep in my head but out loud it’s an ocean
You’ve been pushing my mind and I don’t appreciate it
I mean I love you so much don’t get me wrong
I really do
But everything painful in my mind has nothing to do with you
I can’t tell you and I can’t let you in
I’d rather sink than swim
My life isn’t important and your just my best friend
I only have few who love me
A handful of friends
When I die it’s a means to an end